A Teacher’s Day In The Life (12): The End-of-July Landslide

After the 4th of July, it feels like summer is over.  Typically, around the end of the month, I would be starting to freak out about the upcoming school year.  I would be spending money on planners and bulletin board fabric and borders and extra highlighters, colored pencils and markers.  I would be updating lesson plans and preparing for the extra-curricular activities I’m involved in.  For my district, this year is especially challenging because they did a lot of construction and renovations over the summer, and the teachers are not allowed in their rooms until the in-service days in August.  It’s incredibly stressful when you have to worry about setting up your classroom in addition to preparing rosters, seating charts, first lessons and everything else that happens that first week of school.

This year, however, I’m freaking out for completely different reasons.  I’m not going back to school.  This year, I’m freaking out about money.

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I’m worried about how we’re going to stick to and afford our budget.  I’m worried about my husband being too stressed.  I’m worried about scheduling time to find freelance work I can do from home.  I’m worried about not hacking it as a stay-at-home mom.

I’m also sad about not going back.  Fall is my absolute favorite time of year.  I love the smell of the school.  I love the clothes.  I love seeing my students after a summer apart.  I love the texture of the paper in my books and my lesson planner.  I love penciling everything in.  I will miss it so much.

I’m excited about this next chapter, though.  It will be an adventure for sure and to say that I’m a bit terrified would be an understatement.  I really have no idea what this year will hold for us or if I’ll be able to retain my sanity.

Perhaps I can tackle this like I would preparing for a year of teaching.  I’ll make a schedule and to-do lists.  I’ll manage my time wisely (or as wisely as my one-year-old will allow).  Can I plan out procedures and routines for home?  I think so!  She’s too young for me to teach a routine and then practice it with her before implementing it, but I can certainly do everything in my power to provide consistency.  I can still use a planner and stickers and Post-Its.  It will just look a little different.

Having a plan makes me less nervous.  It makes me feel like I have some control, even though I really don’t have much.  We’ll see how it goes.  I’m excited to be able to watch Lily grow and learn.  I’m happy to just focus on this one little student. 

Soak in these last days of summer, friends!  And say “hi” to your hallways for me.